Last night before heading home. I came here not really knowing what I would find...a part of me thinking this would just be another trip, another stamp in my laready too thick passport. But as I sit here feeling the sun set against my back, I realize that I have found myself. I found the courage I never thought I had. That genuine smile that I thought I had lost...or at least had compromised so that someone else always had theirs. I've found that I don't want to meet someone halfway anymore. I found that I can fall asleep at night not thinking of anything , just pure quiet, if I let my mind rest and stop thinking so much. I found that I'm not hollow, lost or broken. I thought for awhile that nothing could help, that I would always feel this slight emptiness...that I could go through life talking about the things I want but never having to live up to those conversations, today I want to live up to what I say I want.
I've made mistakes but they're my own and they're what make me, "me". I don't need to apologize or say "I'm sorry" anymore. I never gave up or gave in...I simply took myself back. I don't need to say what I think people want to hear, just what I want to say. I can forgive and even love my imperfections...and I don't need to wait for someone to love me because as Matt Dennen sings, "you will be the one who loves you the most."Thank you for always being there...for waiting for me to figure out what you already knew. xoxo.
No comments:
Post a Comment